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welcome to the mind of trish deluria.
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| i miss using this thing. |
[Mar. 8th, 2009|04:34 pm] |
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| | near to you | a fine frenzy | ] |
& i apologize.
R. & J.
♥,
trish
he and i had something beautiful. yet so dysfunctional, it couldn't last.
you and i have something different. & i'm enjoying it cautiously.
though he's gone, & you are wonderful.. it's hard to move on. |
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[Nov. 12th, 2008|08:31 pm] |
is it bad to want to die? i mean, i don't want to hurt myself or anything, let alone consider suicide, but just wanting to die. like i think if i was walking one day and just got shot and woke up on a hospital bed with a few hours to live, i'd be okay.
don't get me wrong, i'm not depressed or anything of the sort. actually, from then up until last month, i was doing pretty well. & now.. i don't know why i find myself contemplating all these things.
how many streets have i crossed wishing to be run over.. how many cigarettes have i smoked hoping this could be "the one" that starts the cancer.. how many robbers, rapists, killers have i attempted to attract commuting on my way home from school.. how many drinks have i drank trying to escape it all.. how many unhappy thoughts i've shoved away just to make everything seem alright.. how long do i have to wait?
i stopped praying. i can't remember the last time i was this unhappy with something.
and now you know.
trish |
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[Sep. 19th, 2008|05:17 pm] |
i'm so confused. i don't know if i LOVE it or HATE it. 'cause 1) it's so time demanding. there are so many things i sacrifice just for it. and yet, i'm still the loser. it's not a win-win situation. there's always something i miss out on. & if i love it so much, then why do i end up feeling this way? and 2) everyday i feel myself slipping away. my passion for it, and the reason why i joined in the first place. it's like the only reason why i even go is 'cause i HAVE to. & seriously, i'm running out of reasons and excuses. and lastly 3) someone is always mad. i'm ruining relationships here! if i do this, mom gets mad. if i do something else, street gets mad. and if i do one or other, i get mad at myself. I'M SO CONFUSED I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I'M SAYING ANYMORE.
God help me.
trish
+ don't overthink, just drink. + |
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| alex pajaro, i read your blog. |
[Sep. 12th, 2008|12:12 am] |
just wanted to know if you still read mine. :) i'll copy how you write in yours..
current thoughts:
1. S, I SOO DID NOT BEAT YOUR ARCHIE MOMENTS.
2. Yes, i definitely want to see those pictures in your phone.
3. I'm excited for our LSDC-Street team building tomorrow.
4. I need to pack.
5. I need to make tiramisu.
6. I think i'm gonna go to sleep now.
and finally..
7. my gpa is just 2.84 :|
i'll post again when i get back. or after that. waaaaay after that.
toodles! [HAHA]
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[Aug. 12th, 2008|11:51 pm] |
| [ | i'm listening to.. |
| | forever | chris brown | ] |
Frustrations and Achievements:
1. getting my license
- definitely an achievement. never thought i would drive. [well, i still don't, but hey. I CAN. i just DON'T. there's a difference, mind you.]
2. my current study habit
- [..or lack thereof] so, this one is a frustration. HELLO, i'm supposed to be writing a paper for polisci right now, and/or studying for a COMALGE quiz tomorrow.
3. quitting smoking
- probably one of, if not the best achievement i've had so far. CLAP, CLAP. & also the reason why i have dentyne in my bad every single day. ugh, cavities. but it's necessary.
4. passing LSDC-Street
- i take it back. THIS is the best achievement i've had. Although, every training [at some point, even just once] i get frustrated. so much PRESSURE.
5. skechers auditions
- i can't audition. i have ACTBAS1 [ANOTHER FRUSTRATION]. but it's also a blessing, i guess. i don't think i'm ready.
6. my no kiss [again] list.
- it may look like an achievement, when in reality it's a frustration. I DO NOT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME. 15 is where it ends. seriously.
7. my tredone group
- i tried to avoid this one. but it just had to be part of this. WHAT A FRUSTRATION!!! that's it. no more comments. i might get carried away.
8. my relationship with God
- i actually still can't decide if this is a frustration or an achievement. i know i'm better off than before, but i also know it can be better. so it's half and half.
9. my single-ness
- frustration. 'nuff said.
10. DWTL
- definitely an achievement. CTK 15. Basta ikaw, Lord.
Achievements: 4/5
Frustrations: 5/6
game. let's go.
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| must. get. out. |
[Jul. 14th, 2008|09:58 pm] |
| [ | i'm listening to.. |
| | if i am | nine days | ] |
STRESS? ..although my first choice would be to pick up a beer [since i don't smoke anymore], this time, i've decided to go on a different route.
HIGH SCHOOL MUSICAL ON ICE!!
& i just wanted to add that, i'm so freakin' excited i can't take it. i missed disney on ice last time, so this is my way of getting back.
that's all.
wish
+ it's that time of year again.. 'so you're standing on a ledge, and it looks like you might fall. so far down or maybe you were thinking about jumping? now you could have it all, if you learned a little patience. for though I cannot fly,i'm not content to crawl... the answers we find are never what we had in mind, so we make it up as we go along.. you don't talk of dreams, i won't mention tomorrow. we won't make those promises that we can't keep.' & it's back. that's never a good sign. + |
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| i don't mean for anyone to get offended by this.. but it's necessary. |
[Jul. 4th, 2008|10:34 pm] |
| [ | i'm listening to.. |
| | i kissed a girl | katy perry | ] |
To Do's and "Not to Do's" of a PowerPoint Presentation.
1. It shouldn't be too 'wordy'. It should actually just be summaries of what you're saying. DO NOT, i repeat, do not COPY & PASTE. First of all, that's plagiarism. Secondly, not all facts are necessary. And third, follow the 7/7 rule! --Maximum 7 sentences with a maximum of 7 words per slide. [also, if there's a hyperlink, at least take the time to remove them.]
2. Just say no. Sometimes, minimalist is the way to go. Animation that loads word for word? NO. Sounds effects every time something comes out? NO. 3 different shades of green over 3 different shades of orange? NO. Effects are there for a reason. --To enhance your presentation, not to confuse or distract your audience.
3. The PowerPoint is dependent on you. Not you to it. Which means, you shouldn't read off it! You should know what you're reporting! The PowerPoint is just there to emphasize the important information regarding the topic you're discussing.
4. Print an outline of your presentation. There's an option for you to print the slides either 3 per page, 6 per page, or if you're saving up on ink, even 9 per page. --USE THIS OPTION. So that you won't be clicking forward and back, forward and back, forward and back just to check what the next slide is.
I'm sorry, but this is a pet peeve. I'm blind & I'm deaf. I hate it when i can't hear the reporter, and at the same time, not being able to read the damn PowerPoint either. [my last sentence sounds funny. but I'm too mentally and physically tired to correct myself. i apologize.]
Save yourself. Please. |
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[Jun. 12th, 2008|12:46 am] |
i usually choose the hands-on approach over the 'listen to the lecture & you shall learn' approach. --but right now, i'd trade ANYTHING to get a lecture on accounting. can i just say, i have ZERO knowledge on accounting. none whatsoever. and here i am trying to figure out how to do these damn balance sheets. i should've taken accounting as an elective. damn agic.
i am seriously starting to get pissed off with this damn transformative learning 'cause 1) i still don't own the 8th edition of accounting principles. I HAVE THE FREAKIN' 7TH EDITION. who knew so much things could change between editions! & 2) my accounting teacher [she who shall not be named] is not a very good teacher. in fact, she talks and talks but basically she's just making kwento about her experiences when she was an accountant. PUH-LEASE. TEACH ME SOMETHING. I AM ACTUALLY VERY EAGER TO LEARN.
and now i understand why people actually fail accounting. not because it's hard. but because it's hard to teach. no matter how many times i read chapter 3 on my own, i will never fully understand it. what a struggle. story of my life.
death by accounting.
R.I.P.
trish
+ it's only the third week of school.. WINNER. + |
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| my ACET essay. |
[Jun. 9th, 2008|01:29 pm] |
yes, i will post it. no, you cannot laugh at it. yes, it's major cheesy. no, it's 100% true. yes, i did pass THE ateneo. ahthankyou.
Stand, Walk, Run, Dance… Fly.
By: Patricia Regine C. Deluria
Everyone, at some point in their life, dreams of flying. –To see the world, touch the sky, and feel the impossible. If happy thoughts alone could make me fly, then I’d be flying every time I thought of dancing.
I was lucky enough that at a young age of 3, I already knew what love was. Even if I couldn’t explain it through words, I knew my sequence of movements would suffice. Fortunately for me, it was something that came naturally. And if there was one thing that has helped define me as a person, it would be dance.
When I reached high school, I decided to join the Poveda Hardcourt Varsity Team, and as luck would have it, I made it. I have been a part of the team for four years now, and I must admit, it was one of the best decisions I’ve made in my life. I learned quite a number of things that have definitely helped me become a better person.
I became aware that it’s not based purely on talent, but on heart as well. You can be the best dancer in the world, but if you don’t love what you do, then it’s worth nothing. I might not always get the steps of the dance on the proper count, but that doesn’t mean I have to give up. Same goes for the way I treat life when not all things go as planned; I just keep working to get it right.
Another value I learned is that it’s not about sacrifice; it’s about commitment. My academics were supposed to be my top priority, but I only understood that in my second year in high school. I had training almost everyday, and at the same time, I had schoolwork and tests. I used to forgo my studies for training, but I realized I had an obligation to both. I knew what I got myself into, and I was determined to succeed in both.
I also realized that it’s not just about responsibility; it’s also about hard work. At first, I always attended training because I felt like I HAD to. I needed to improve my skills and I thought that by being present in training was enough. After awhile, I became aware of the fact that I had to work for it. Then that’s when I began going to training because I WANTED to.
Lastly, and most importantly, I began to understand that it’s not just about discipline; it’s also about having fun. The best lesson I learned in hardcourt is to live a little, and laugh a lot more. Life is all about experiences, good or bad; either way, they change your life.
As I grew as a person, the passion for dance inside me grew as well. It allowed me to take a simple movement and turn it into something more. Dance became more than just a thrill. It became a way of relaxation, my way of releasing stress and anxiety.
In the end, I didn’t need anything, not even music, to fly. I had everything I needed inside me. I danced to the rhythm of my own life, and I soared to the beat of my heart. |
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[Jun. 6th, 2008|11:39 pm] |
every single event that has happened in our lives is dependent on a choice we've made earlier in the past. some things would never have happened if i never made/chose some decisions over another. & it's just so weird that every time something 'new' happens, i have this urge to start/do something. --anything.
on some minor situations, i can do something as small as.. say, wash my hands. [i know, it's weird, but i just can't control it] or sometimes, i start reading a new book, even if i'm in the middle of another one. & then i get these rare occasions when i need to start something BIG. i call them my little 'projects', but that's just my excuse to show my artsy-fartsy side. as you've noticed, i too have got a few quirks here and there.
i guess i'm just fond of new beginnings. & symbolisms, too.
what do YOU do when a life-changing event happens in your life?
let me know.
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